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February..already?
It 's February already, one more week to go and then I'm off to New
Zealand once more. I have this mix feeling of wanting and not wanting
to go. Gosh, what a funny feeling it is indeed. I have enjoyed my self
so much this time around. I met up with old old friends, learn to play
this addictive (so addictive) game of Dota, bonded with many and had a
jolly time. But most importantly I got to know my brother, the boy that
was, the guy that is and the man that he is going to be. Just typing
this out makes me wanna cry a little just because I enjoyed his company
so much during my holiday. I have laughed at and with him,
partied hard with him, had talks that made me wonder why I never
confided in him before and generally relying on him to be there
for me. I never did before cause I didn't know him very well, can you
imagine me not knowing my brother at all till this last trip back?
Luckily (thank you God) I was re-introduced to him as a friend
and a confidante because he was all this things to me and it made me
love and appreciate him even more. Studying overseas made me realise
what was important to me and I realise now that my family is indeed
very important and I will cherish them even more now.. I use to take
them for granted thinking that they would always be there just
because...just because they were my family. I don't know, does this
make sense?
I also had the oppoturnity to get to know my sister. She and I have
loads of ups and down, more arguements then I care to think about but
all the arguing made me see how fast she was growing up how
fast she was going to be a woman. One minute she was the baby that mum
brought home all swaddled up in comfy blankets and before I knew
it I was teaching her dance steps for her kindergarden recitals.
Somewhere along the way my sister became this independent , loud mouth
and very (VERY) opinionated young girl. I am enthralled and very
much shocked at how she thinks, she sometimes thinks thoughts that not
even I contemplate about! She's so very blunt (the kind of bluntness
that rubs raw as only 12 year olds know how to do) The way she speaks
sometimes makes me forget how fragile she really is, behind that sassy
front lies a young girl trying to find a place where she can call
her own, to be comfortable with herself and to be at ease with others.
I know where she is coming from and know what her fears are for
it is those exact things that I had feared when I was her age. I try to
protect her and tell her what to do but I realise that shielding her
does not mean that I am protecting her. The mistakes that I have made
and learnt from has made me into (what I hope) to be a better
person and she has to make this same mistakes to be able to 'learn'
from them. But then again why make mistakes when one can avoid
them. True? Thus lies my dilemma, how do I teach my young sister? Do I
let her go through the pitfalls of adolescents and just be there for
her whenever she needs a confiding shoulder to cry on or be her
faithful watchdog and watch over her at all time while taking the
risk that this might stifle her? I am at a crossroad.
However,
from this trip I have found that my siblings are wonderful people to
talk to about anything and everything under the sun! They listen
diligently and they are not afraid to voice out their opinions
especially those that I might not want to hear but I do believe it is
important to have honest feedback from the ones that matter to you
most. I love you guys so much, indeed I am honoured to have such
wonderful (albeit sometimes annoying) siblings. I know not what else to
say on this.
Do I think too much ?
I don't know la.
Till Then
Another Blog
She is hilarious and painfully honest what a lethal combination and
here I was saying how Kiasu ( an attidude of MUST win!! no matter what
it takes) Singaporeans can get.
PROOF!
my friends PROOF!!
WHY ARE YOU WORSHIPPING THE GROUND I BLOG ON??
This entry was priceless!
Oh Dear, Oh Dear
and the repercussions for speaking her thoughts:
YAWN
Till Then
Geeks United
men/boys/shmucks/idiots/buggers/fools/friends/brothers/geekazoids whom
I have been spending most of my waking hours with. We try to kill each
other, succeeding in each others destruction by (sometimes) working
together to gang-bang one another. Foul Mouth United are we when
we lose, Crowers Of The Rooftops are we when we are victorious in our
pursuits, all in the name of DOTA!!
Till Then
Dancing, drinking, and having an all time high
Nope...
Nope....
Nope....
I don't have any pictures of 'any' party that I have been to as I
sacrificed my social life to be the 'best' (cough) player in
DOTA. But now as I am typing this out while listening to
the fervent rhytmns of N.E.R.D its making me want to DANCE!
Hopefully, my girls night out this Saturday will be successful however
I need people to reply my emails and sms as I have already informed my
beeyatchs but no one has confirmed!
Sigh, I don't mind clubbing with my boys but it ain't the same. You
know with girls you can slut away, flirt all night and drink like
theres no tommorow and yet not feel concious as it's with your girls!
It's very different partying with da boys not only would I feel self
concious there is this feeling that you don't want to shock them too
much as you know how fragile men minds are. 
SIgh....
OOooOOOO Nina Sky songs 'Move your body girl' is on!
This is a sign :P
ka ka k aka ka
Last night, I had another round of DOTA. I am losing miserably much to
the amusement of all. Oh well I gonna shake my booty to let off
them losing streak.
HO! HO! HO!
Till Then
Ariba? Aruba?
Last night I went to have some drinks with the boys and I had tremendous fun
The night started out funny with half of the group going to the beach
side (as there was a bar there called Ariba) and here we were (me and
Mike) waiting for them at Aruba which is 20 minutes away from the
beach!
Tsk tsk tsk
As we were waiting for them, Eric came to join us who was a friend of
Mike's and he was one funny fellow and grouchy too as he hadn't had
dinner. I didn't mind as all the men in my life get really boorish when
their hungry .
We started the night with two tequila pops while waiting for the gang.
Mike's ankle was bothering him as he had twisted it while playing
futsal. AWWW POOR BABY! :P So we thought that with alcohol in our body
(well I had to drink to with him to support my friend!) he could
forget about his pain. Through the night he sure forgot the pain and a
whole lot more stuff!!
When the guys arrived it signalled the party had begun they wasted no
time in ordering a bottle of Chivas, beer and Jack Daniels.
By the time we finished the bottle Mike had slapped Miao and Miao
slapped him back, we concluded that elves who fornicated with Orcs
produce ugly off springs (strong as hell but still butt ugly ) and that
men create the most corny pick up lines! The best ones are...come to
think of it ALL of em were funny. Hell anything is fuuny with a certain
amount of alcohol in your body.
Mike: OK! oK! I got one
"Hai my name is Micheal and I'm a lawyer!"
All: Wakakakakakakakakakak
(Rudy spews his beer on the table)
Aud: Ok! I got the best one
Men sidles up to Chinese Chick, looks her in the eye with the most sincerest look and says
"Can you speak english?"
All: Wakakakakakak!
(Mike bangs table and Miao bangs HIS head on the table!)
Then we had the normal but still funny as hell
"Are you tired of running? That must be because you were running around in my head"
Rudy's one was
Can I hold your hand? Please let me hold your hand! I beg you!
*so the girl is overcome by curiousity and gives him her hand*
Man holds it fervently and says with all honesty
"I've never been touched by an angel before"
All: wakakakkakakakak!!
I tell you we were so noisy it was like the place was owned by us.
Through all this I was fine and dandy untill Rudy got the beers out and
that was my stepladder into oblivion. I was fine (really) a bit slow on
the talking, a bit unclear on the thoughts but hell I was having fun.
Then Zu came up and got me and Miao JD's. Oh dear we downed it all in
one gulp and yours truly was in la la land soon after. It was not
good, there I was having difficulty standing, and peeing was hard cause
I always ended up sleeping in the toilet. It was whacked!
So the drunks finished up the leftover drinks and headed off to the
Cyber cafe. Hell yeah! We went in there with guns a blazing. The first
game I was this character that could control Trees and I tell you I had
no idea what I was doing but I know I KNOW that I kick their arses
good! This is because this character can summon up loads of trees that
does horrible damage to the enemies base.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
Everytime someone killed my hero their apologies were given
profuselly and "I'm DRUNK BAH!" can be heard being shouted across the
room to me!
First game ended fast enough so we had time for one more and I had a lethal character that came in the shape of a Scorpion.
I realise that with me foxed I manage to get second placing for the very first time in whole DOTA playing life!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
I manage to sober up abit (but not much) and after the game the guys
went to eat while me, Alex and Zu went to Lido to get some packed food
and went back to my place to munch on our goodies. Official time this
all ended, 5am. It was a good night indeed.
The munchers
TIll Then
What, Tsunami???
So yeah there I was nicely getting tipsy at my place (with my beautiful
friends around me) and was on the way out of my
gate when Miao got a frantic phone call from Zuhun telling him that we
should just stay at home because an earthquake of 7.2 richter was noted
in the Sulu sea at around 10.30pm. Miao was thinking Zu was pulling his
leg so he ask how he knew. Apprently, Zu was having dinner with
his grilfriend at one of the popular sea side restaurants when
suddenlly a waiter came up and insisted that they leave so Zu
complied and was about to pay the Rm100 (50NZD) bill when the waiter
ask him to not waste time and to just leave the bill.
WOW!
Not having to pay the hefty bill was what boggled Zu's
(already tipsy) mind and so he went to call every friend he knew
to warn them.
We didn't really believe him even when my mum had heard
about it and was outside talking to us about the possibilities of
a Tsunami happening. You see the club that we wanted to go to was by
the sea. Stupid, I know. But how does one try to negotaiate with 10
(overly) tipsy youths? So we decided to check out the place and see for
ourself if Zu was indeed not pulling our leg.
As we reach the city we saw alot of people with large bags over their
head heading towards the musesum as it was on a hill. It
was a saturday night the traffic is ussually horrendous goiong to the
city but the traffic was horendous last night on the opposiute lane
going to the inlands. Seeing this we decided to turn around and
head our tipsy self back home. However, I was hungry so Wen
Ji sent me and Amy to Lintas and promptly went home as her mum
had called her and was getting frantic.
Sigh,
So there we were hungry, and tipsy my head felt so heavy that I
laid down on the pavement and Amy followed suit. Incredibly there were
stars! I nearly fell asleep when my nose caught a scent of the drain
that I was lying beside to. So before I embarrassed myself and soil the
ground I woke up and saw Miao at the opposite side of the road looking
for us.
So there we were a daze loking Miao , a very red Me (courtesy of a drinkign game that I was very bad at) and a very blur Amy
waiting for my order of fried rice noodles. As we were waiting I saw my
ex with a table full of hot chicks and there I was cursing myself for I was
looking like an overcook lobster! Oh well.
Did you know that before all this franticness Melissa, Royline
and Audrey were at my place having a drink (and some more) while
laughing at Miao and Ivans antics (they were trying to get me drunk). I
thought thath finally I get to go and shake them booties with my
ladies. Sigh, when we decided to skip the city and go have a bite the
girls couldn't join us except for Amy cause Mel didn't feel too good.
Sigh,
Anyhoo, when my food arrived so did Hon Fong so we sent Amy back cause she also
had a frantic call from her mum and then the boys adjourne to my house
to wait it out (or so they said) after half an hour of waiting we
decided to play gin rum mi. It was nice that Tim and his friend Jackie
joined us for a couple of games. Chee called and so Hon Fong went
to pick him up. So there we were 6 guys and a girl (urm..... Zu
joined us not long after) playing gin rum mi and talking bull till f*&^king 4am in the morning.
Sigh again my girls night out was a night in with the all male troupe.
It ain't that bad...
I think.
My ladies, Mel, Royline and the two very red Audrey's
Intoxicated Morons of the first degree
The MIAO!
Goofy! My type of people
Strangely we could see the stars and it was beautiful
Them men, I tell you!
P/s the next day it was noted that there was no tsunami only a mild
earthquake in the Phillipines with no danger of an aftershock.
It was not meant to be.
Till Then
Flow
I have Isabelle Antena on my realplayer as I chill and type out
whatever want for this entry. I feel nice and languid.
I realise my emotions are very susceptible to change depending on what
song I am playing. Right now I have this beautiful French song on and
it's making me dizzy with it's melody and smooth grooves. I don't
understand it and she migth be saying something weird like "your stupid
and i'm beautiful" or something like that but the way she sings it is
effortless, it is as if time stops for just a moment, just that one
moment till the song ends.
Beautiful.
People who enjoy having a glass of wine or even a hot glass of milk
while looking out the window, sitting on the couch with a book or just
aimlessly dreaming away and even when their all alone they would be smiling and
feeling completely at ease. They will know how I feel at this moment.
You
love yourself at that moment, everything is right with the world,
everything is right in 'your' world, for now and that is all that
matters right now. All dreamy and corny.
My kind of corny.
It is one am in the morning here in Kota Kinabalu, good morning.
I am going to go and cuddle my pillow, on my bed, have a smile on my lips and dream away.
I am contented.
Why, you ask?
Just because.
It is just one of those days to smile and be happy.
Just Because.
Till Then,